I remember someone telling me sometime that we keep having to learn the same lesson over and over until we finally, actually learn the lesson.

This week I had to learn my recurring lesson twice!

I worked myself up unneccessarily over work early in the week when I had to tell them I couldn’t come in for my shifts at all. I fretted and sweated over what to say and how to say it. Finally I simply stated I couldn’t come in and the response was as simple as, “Ok, we’ll look at the schedule and work it out.” When I hung up the phone I laughed at myself out loud.

Then yesterday and today I got worked up unneccessarily again when I was preparing to really, truly, give my two weeks notice once and for all. No kidding. And at the end of my shift today I simply placed the letter in my boss’s office and drove home. I kept expecting to get a frantic phone call, but no such phone call ever came. Again, I am laughing.

Am I so egotistical as to think that a business can’t go on without me? Sure, I’m valued, but the Spa will certainly keep running long after I am gone. Some people don’t even give 2 weeks, but I had to give it twice! Haha–now that’s just comedy.

My brother asked me tonight if I got that part I spoke about in my last post. Well, no. But what I took away from that audition was just as valuable. I learned that I simply need to go to my auditions and have fun. He said, “Stop trying to be a serious actress and just go in there and be as fucking funny as you are!”

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PS: The Alaskan cruise was fun…