I’ve gotten away from myself over the last year and I’ve decided that this new year will be about reconnecting to things I feel I’ve lost.

To start, I’ve resolved to get dressed in the morning. Ok, so what I really mean is that I am no longer going to work wearing my sweats. (See I have that luxury working in fitness). No, now I am getting up a little earlier and trying to remind myself that putting an outfit together can be a form of self expression. So, in short, I am trying to get my style back. I may even try to do my hair from time to time.

I used to take a yoga class from time to time and so I went to one of those last week and my shoulder muscles were uber-sore afterward. But I loved the quiet of the room only interrupted by a soothing male voice offering thoughtful ideas ad helpful adjustments. And the mixed-gender practice was a welcome change from my women-only movement sanctuary. I will be going back this Saturday. I think of it as cross-training. And I am seriously considering pursuing yoga certification later this year.

Another thing that I have gotten away from is acting. Acting was such a big part of me and I am thankful to have stepped away from it for a couple of years because I feel that I am now ready to embrace it again as something I want to do instead of something I must do.

So, in keeping with my 2007 resolutions (ah well), I stepped foot into an acting class last night. It only took me a year. And I was ready. I sat in a room of stranger actors for 3.5 hours and I was happy to be there watching the actor process and feeling my love of acting begin to resurface after a long hibernation.

It’s amazing how easy it is to get away from oneself. And how difficult it is to get back to oneself. I find I am questioning everything at the moment. I actually feel relatively present and awake, but what this means is that I am feeling much more of the pain and frustration of my current existence. And how fabulous!

I do not want to be numb. I want to feel everything fully and with vigor. I do not want to get stuck. I want to explore life and constantly be learning and challenged by new things. I do not want to get lost in routine and stress. I want to find me again.

So my theme for 2008 is: Back To Mine