Dearest Jack,

Here we are on the eve of my return to work. It’s 12am and you are enjoying your midnight nursing session as I type this on my iPhone. While these midnight (or later) nursing sessions are exhausting, I secretly, or not-so-secretly, love them because all is quiet and I feel a closeness to you which I hope will remain steadfast as our relationship evolves over time.

Since becoming your mom, I feel like I have grown as a person because you have taught me a new kind of patience, a new kind of tired, a new kind of laughter, a new kind of worry and a new kind of love. I’m a stronger and more selfless woman now, which I appreciate so much.

Now that my maternity leave is over, I want to tell you how much I’ve cherished your first 3 months and spending almost all my time with you. Welcoming you into the world, nurturing your newborn weight gain, seeing your wonderful personality emerge, listening to your sweet cooing, watching the delightful, and often hilarious, faces you make while eating or sleeping, hearing your breath at my neck as you nap on my shoulder, dancing with you in front of the mirror as you grin, seeing that we share a love for a warm bath before bed, the challenge of learning your special quirks & preferences, holding you in my arms as you sleep so I can admire your sweet face and watching you and your Dad become fast friends, already sharing in inside jokes.

In just 3 months, you have brought me so much joy, my little one. You have burst my heart wide open. You are my sweet treasure and I look forward to our future adventures.

I love being your mom and I love you.

Ok, goodnight and feel free to sleep through the night.

Always,
Mom
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