I have nothing and everything to report.

Last week I was wonderfully busy! I am remembering that variety is important in my life for my sanity to remain in tact. Total Gemini.

Last week I…

~worked two shadow shifts at lululemon
~had dinner with my friend Robert after not really seeing him for almost a year
~ went to four yoga classes: one kick-my-ass one and three normal ones
~worked 1.5 days at S Factor
~went to dinner with my Wednesday night class
~taught five classes
~had dinner with my friend Rie
~went to a teacher class at S Factor and had a dance that made me happy
~had breakfast with Coco
~went to a screening of Frost/Nixon with RJ (very good, I highly recommend)
~drank two margaritas, which made me sick (??)
~attended the yoga DVD release party for one of my favorite yoga teachers
~napped a LOT, which I think helped me stay cold-free despite signs I might get one

I am also reconnecting with friends.

I realize that with all the travel I did during 2008, I disconnected from people. Everyone, really. I am now working to recreate bonds that have been lost and am learning to be a better friend. I have been delusional about friendship forever, I think, and I am finally starting to understand the meaning of being a friend. I am choosing to make more of an effort now than in recent years. I am ready to be honest with myself about the fact that friendship takes as much work as any romantic relationship.

I see now that I unconsciously built a wall around myself after being disappointed by friendship at different times in my life, but I am now ready and willing to take the wall down, one layer at a time. Relationships of all kinds are important to me, and yet, I’ve been neglecting the friendship kind for too long. I am ready to listen, I am ready to share and I am ready to laugh. I am ready to be a better friend.

And speaking of friendship, my friend Rie, whom I admire and cherish so much, said this during her yoga class:
“Find stillness: When the waters of the lake are perfectly clear you can see to the bottom.”

This is so powerful for me right now as I search for understanding. My tendency is to “do” things in order to see things more clearly, but really, perhaps doing less will help me see more.

My focus now is on friendship, gratitude and “showing up” for myself.

This is what is flowing through my life at the moment. See? Nothing and everything…